Heaven Knows
Daniel Lee(Originally by Rick Price)

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go, She's all I know.
And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone, I'm still holding on.

So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday, Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way, But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray,
'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her, You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time, I'll know she's mine.

Why I live in despair
'Coz wide awake or dreamin', I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave, I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?
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A song I put on my blog by Daniel Lee, the 2nd Malaysian Idol. This song originally popularised by Rick Price and before Daniel, the Channel U Project Superstar Champion, Kelvin sang this song in one of the stages of the competition. It is a nice song worth listening for a long time and the lyric is simply meaningful. I like to put songs that reflects my feeling on my blog, haha~~
I hope Heaven knows what I'm thinking. Haha~~ Anyway, I hope the readers will enjoy this song although there aren't many readers on my blog recently i guess. (^_^)

今天是星期一，12月26号，也就是圣诞节过后的一天。不知道大家的圣诞过得如何呢？是和谁度过的呢？朋友吗？爱人吗？家人吗？无论如何都希望大家过了一个快乐的圣诞。新的一年也要到来了哦，就让我们以愉快的心情来迎接2006年吧~~呵呵~~

为了参加我们班级主办的圣诞派对（虽然迟了一天，但应该不打紧吧？），我从马来西亚回来新加坡了。不过，才回来就听到了一些让人扫兴的消息。我们有些同学不会出席派对了，唉.... 不是已经说好了的吗？相信这临时的变卦肯定让人不好受，尤其是我们的班长啦。辛辛苦苦把派对搞了出来但却得不到好的回应。尽管如此，我还是希望耽会儿的派对会是愉快的啦~~

之前说到了圣诞愿望吧？我到现在都还没有实现那个愿望耶。虽然圣诞已经过了，但我还是在期待啦，希望会有奇迹出现咯~~呵呵~~

Time really flies. Just before I could catch my breath, one term of my second semester in Ngee Ann Polytechnic has ended and what awaits me will be the terrifying(I hope that is not true : P) common test that will be commenced after our study break. We'll be sitting papers for 3 subjects which are Inorganic and Physical Chemistry, Physiological Systems and Mathematics and Statistics 1. For another core module which is the Microbiology, we have sat for the test yesterday which means before the common test week. According to Mr Chow, our lecturer, he did this to ease our stress during the break and for us to enjoy the coming Christmas, how nice right? Haha~~

Talking about the holiday, in fact it is just a study break where we need to revise, how troublesome, haha~~ The break will be 2 weeks long. This is quite unusual compared to our usual 1 week study break. All thanks to the Christmas, yay!! However, I like holidays but I kind of hate it too because this will be the boring period. Hope that I will be able to get myself to revise seriously, it is really worrying me since i kind of losing interest in certain module due to certain lecturer. I hope i am still be able to compete with the elites though. Well, I know very well that all these actually lies on me myself. So, gambateh la.... to myself.

Now i am wondering how to spend my Christmas, hehe~~ Our class organised a Christmas party one day after the actual Christmas which is 26th of December. Thanks to Brian, our class rep and Audrey for planning this party. By the time, we will be exchanging presents, eating to our heart's content and singing, it will definitely be fun. Our mentor, Miss Ong will be there too.

Since the Christmas is coming, I'd like to make a wish here... Haha..... Just a very simple wish, which is to watch The Chronicles Of Narnia with someone special. I really this small wish will come true, please.... Santa...... Wahaha~~

So that's all for the moment i think... I hope there'll be another update soon. Cheers~~

唉...最近的日子真的是颓废到了极点，我真的不知道近来做了些什么有建设性的事情。我近乎大部分的空闲时间都在打网游，可以说是就要到发疯了的境界。我曾经还有一次因为太累了而迟到。坦白地说，我并不喜欢这样的生活。大家一定会想，既然不喜欢又何必如此呢？但是我真的没有办法控制自己，因为只有通过这个游戏，我才能见到他，和他聊天。我多么希望能够再靠近对方一点，但是等级的悬殊让我担心我会离他越来越远，好无聊的想法吧？我真得疯了...
下来，我又担心等学校假期结束后，他不再有时间玩网游，而我也可能没有办法再见到他了。有时觉得自己真的有点没用，东西全部都只藏在心里，掩饰着。又或许是我自己想得太多，过度焦虑了。我究竟应不应该放弃追寻呢？我几经想过要放弃，但结果还是坚持下来了。朋友们都劝我放弃的好，但我就是不愿意。尽管如此，我无法预料自己还能够坚持，硬撑多久。只能说是撑一天过一天吧。大概就等到被亲口拒绝为止吧。想到这里我就好心疼，但愿这一天永远不会到来。

不过，除了伤心，颓废的事情以外，还是会有令人开心，雀跃的事情值得分享的。之前有提到关于我到木船民歌餐厅找工作以及面试的事情，现在就是要说这个。呵呵~~（难得会有“呵呵~~”出现啊...）经过30号那天第一轮的面试，我终究找回了一点自信。我在大概星期六也就是12月3号那天（面试后3天）终于收到我期待已久，木船的电邮了。电邮交代说我成功进入第二轮面试了。真的好令人开心啊，我终于有机会能够证明给木船那班家伙看我不是好欺负的了。我一直觉得他们有剥削马来西亚人的嫌疑，当然我不希望我的直觉是对的。第二轮的面试将会在12月14号并采用不插电的方式进行考验。虽然我已经有一段时间没有在餐厅驻唱了但我仍然对自己这方面的能力有信心，但愿到时不会出乱子就好了。至于选曲，我还没有决定，一时之间也不知道应该选哪些歌才好。希望自己在12号以前能挤出一些不错的歌曲来交给木船，哈哈~~通过这个考验后我相信我应该就能进入木船，实现我的梦想。如此一来，父母也不必那么辛苦啦。哈哈~~

今天打开电邮箱，发现了校方寄来的学费征收通知，要求我们把学费准备好存入银行户口，再由他们从银行自动转账。这个学期的费用是新币$1130。这笔数目对我来说非常大，父母一时间要掏出那么多钱还真的不简单。到现在才了解父母的苦处哦。不过，我又开始担心了。我近来一直有不祥的预感，我担心自己在这个学期没有办法考得跟上学期一样好。似乎跟我最近的生活方式有关。但愿我的想法是多余的啦，我还想继续拿最佳表现奖呢。好压力啊！呵呵~~

好久都没有那么长的帖子了。其实一直以来都想每天更新，但就是因为自己一直守着网游，弄得写日记的心情都没有了。今天有这样的闲情真是难得啊，呵呵~~
...........心情顿时又恢复到低落了.............>_<